The Search is On

 

Hello friends!!! For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Kathryn. I am 21 years old and am currently at a crossroad. This Monday I asked my Phi Mu chapter to take time and write a letter to themselves. The letter could include anything from New Years resolutions, goals for the year, or if they so pleased a list of “Would you rather” jokes. (For example: Would you rather eat 15 unused cotton balls, or drink a gallon of salt water?) At the end of 2011 I told them I would send the letter back to them via snail mail. Then, it hit me like a ton of bricks. BOOOMMM! As I was receiving all of these letters back, I couldn’t for-the-life-of-me figure out what I wanted to write in my own letter! To be honest, a month ago I probably would have said that I had it all figured out, my life was finally perfectly in place, and I didn’t need to make any changes whatsoever. But boy oh boy, was I mistaken! I have had a lot of time to think over the brutally dragged out Christmas break, and this is all I could come up with: I AM A MESS!

Let me give you a little information to help you understand:
At the beginning of my college career I was full throttle Jesus Freak on fire! The good Lord was filling my love tank up each and every day and I could not get enough! I actually acquired the nickname, Little Jesus. Which, until recently was something that I resented with a mile deep passion. Then, “college life” zoomed in at 120 miles per hour. I got caught up in school, new friends, being a sorority girl, and trying to balance my new life in with my old faith. How wrong does that sound? I was trying to balance my faith in with my life, aka Jesus was being put on a big fat hold! Eventually, He got shoved in the back of my messy closet. But don’t worry, I pulled him out every once in a while to make sure people remembered I was a Christian. HA!

This brings me to the present, I am currently on a mission to ignite my hotter than hot love for the big man upstairs once again! How do I do this? I don’t really know. So, I picked up an old book I had started reading a long time ago, Crazy Love (Highlyyyyy recommended!). This made me realize something, I’ve been a lukewarm Christian the past two years. YUCK! For those of you who are not sure what that is, let me give you a couple of characteristics (all thanks to Francis Chan).
1.They desire to fit in both inside the church and outside the church
2. They don’t want to be saved from their sins, rather the penalty of them
3. They are moved by people who do radical things, yet they themselves do nothing
4. (This is the most cringing of them all ) They rarely share their faith because they do not want to make people feel uncomfortable!

What does all of this have to do with finding the secret to life you ask? Well, I want to figure out what Jesus’ big secret is!

As we both pursue each other on this new journey of revived faith, I want to find out what I was missing 2 years ago that made it so easy to rid me of my yearning for the Lord.

What is it that satisfies the human heart to the utmost core? I LOVE loving Jesus and now I want to find out what he is holding out on me with! Is it true love, music, a good vacation, or is the secret embedded in my guilty pleasure: GOSSIP GIRL? Consider this my letter to myself. I am setting a time crunch of one year to figure it out. This means I have 365 days and 52 weeks to explore the worlds most compelling mystery. Every week I will dissect a topic from laughter to grandparents, from a cozy bed to a best friend, what is it that makes the world go round? At the end of one year I will pick THE secret of life from these 52 topics. Is it possible? I am not sure, but I am excited to find out!
So, please join me on this journey and invite your friends! Maybe together we can put this mystery to rest!

Peace out rainbow trout!
Kathryn