The past two months have been pretty darn amazing. I recently just graduated college and am currently in the limbo stages of undergrad to graduate school. I decided that this summer I would just take time off and be free to do whatever I wanted before becoming a full time grad student with no time, money, or brain power left to function. This may have been one of the best decisions I have ever made, second to ordering the whole wheat blueberry pancakes at Fido in Nashville.
I could not wait to get this summer underway. I imagined my friends and I all going out every weekend, living like celebrities, meeting new people, and maybe even having a couple summer flings before jet setting back to reality when August would roll around. Life never actually happens how we imagine it though.
If you know me at all, you fully understand when I say I have an extremely hard time being quiet. Nevertheless, this summer I endured a lot of unexpected "quiet time." Which is weird for me because I literally could be content talking to a rock. However, there is only so much talking to the wall you can do when all your friends have jobs and you have a deaf dog. So, what did I do? I decided to pick back up a conversation I started with Jesus a long time ago.
I cannot even begin to describe how refreshing this was. Jesus is like one of those friends that you can go for years not talking to, but when you see him or her you can pick right back up where you left off. I absolutely love this about him. I'll be honest, I have a really hard time maintaining a constant balanced relationship with the J-Man. Luckily, I received a piece of advice that helped me rekindle my flame from a good friend at a bible study this summer. She challenged me to start talking to Jesus only when I actually want to not when I feel like I have to. This was awesome. I found myself wanting to spend more time with Him because it was no longer an obligation. I genuinely began to enjoy our time together and our conversations became two sided again. Sounds like an excerpt from a couples therapy session, doesn't it?
Well, maybe, just maybe, we should really start looking at our relationship with Christ this way. We put so much time and effort into perfecting and maintaining our humanly relationships every day. Why don't we do that with Jesus too? It's a question that shouldn't have to be asked. However, so many of us forget to work on the one relationship that trumps all others. The thing that really gets me here is that Jesus literally can't break up with you, he isn't going to stab you in the back and date your best friend, he would never cheat on you, and he sure is not going to be the one to file for divorce. We cannot go wrong with Him. This is a fact. This is the one relationship that, if we want it to, will remain constant for the entirety of our lives.
It's puzzling to me why I will most likely spend hours and even days worrying and waiting for some jerk loser to text me. Yet, I can call up the most popular guy in the universe and he will answer before the phone even rings. Now, I'm not saying find the closest relationship counselor, knock on her door and start yelling I want to get back together with Jesus. But how about just being quiet and taking (in my case) a summer, or even just a weekend, to spark back up the fire that Jesus once had set in your heart. Jesus just wants you to want Him. And let's get real why would you not want to be in love with the most amazing, all powerful, merciful and just God that is and was and ever will be???
I guess what I am trying to say is my summer did not go totally like I had imagined. I did not go out every weekend, I felt nothing like a celebrity and it turns out I'm not leaving my summer fling when I go back to school. I'm taking Him with me and I could not be more excited!
So, could my summer vacation be the secret to life? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
